Anxiety & Panic Attacks

Hiya

I have panic attacks and I suffer from anxiety.

It sounds all a bit cliché, a British blogger who has anxiety and panic attacks, remind you of anyone?

Well anyway, I had a really bad panic attack at school. I had to describe this panic attack to a bunch of teachers and I found that hard  to talk and describe what I felt so instead I typed it. I found it easier and it hoped it was easier to explain to about 5 teachers who at the time made me more anxious.

Panic attacks can be different for everybody to has had them. Some are mild and overs are like a living nightmare.

I had a living nightmare panic attack today.
Everything went dark and cold.
My vision was blurry and my mind black and blank.
My senses increased to ultra, I could hear everything really well and really loud for 5 seconds; then everything went quiet and only mouths were moving but no sound could be heard.

I felt like I couldn't breathe and I started to hyperventilate (breathe really quick) but that made my head spin. I cried and wanted to get out but my feet were rooted to the spot.

My legs and hands went all shaky and I just couldn't see a way to calm down.

My friends helped me get outside but that made me get worse and then slowly I started to feel less and less trapped under the spell of anxiety.

But my panic attacks didn't stop there. I had a BIG tidal wave followed by little waves of panic. My big panic attack lasted for about 15 minutes and then I was caught by 6 or 7 little panic attacks of unnecessary panic which made me feel worse.

But after a panic attack I find it hard to eat, drink and talk or just to feel normal again.

I don't blame anyone for my panic attacks, just myself because my brain loses it and goes into 'protect mode' and shuts everything down.

The one tip I get all the time is to "Calm Down" and that is very easy to say but hard to do.

one tip I would give to anyone who is experiencing panic attacks is try to remember a happy memory or place and think of that because it will help you get to a normal state again.

If anyone reading this suffers from panic attacks or anxiety please let me know so I know I am not the only one.

Thanks for reading this

Fairy Lights & Cozy Nights  xxx